The Art of Becoming Me...

It is said that the the lotus flower starts as a small flower down at the bottom of a pond in the mud and muck.  As it slowly grows it moves up towards the water's surface continually moving towards the light.  Once it comes to the surface of the water, the small flower begins to blossom and turn into a beautiful lotus.

The lotus is my healing symbol...

One of my first pieces of art, a
reflection from my Healing Meditation 

it came to me during a healing meditation I did in 2011...as I held it in my hands it burst into life, exhaling sparkling starlight, I've never forgotten the magick in the air and the feeling of being complete in that moment. And so...I knew that like the Lotus I too could rise from the muck and blossom...and my healing deepened.

My healing journey has been...

an endless cycle, just when I thought I had it down, discovered a new tool to add to my medicine bag...I find myself back at the beginning.  Unable to find my way through the muck again, getting swallowed by it.  Seems no sooner do I find healing, transformation and clear a layer, that another shows up and it's more challenging then the last.  But I know each time I find myself getting through that muck, I'm that much closer to my dream, my truth, my vision...to breaking the surface and becoming me.

With each new layer cleansed...

comes a deeper understanding, a deeper wisdom and I know as much as it sucks...the muck is there for a reason. I remember reading in the Alchemical Healing book by Nicki Scully that "it is through a kind of death and renewal that we find great benefit from what initially appears to be our most challenging situations."  

But it isn't easy...

and some days are really challenging and it's harder to get through the mud and muck no matter what tools I use from my medicine bag to get through it.  Those are the times I see my old patterns of dealing with my "stuff" resurface and I feel I've moved one step forward only to go two steps back.  In all reality...these patterns are going to keep coming up over and over again, until they are transformed.  Our old patterns will always be a part of our life but that doesn't mean we have to give into them.  In fact, with each time, they lose their power quicker and it becomes a conscious choice to not get stuck there.

In the meantime...

I continue to breathe...reminding myself to find serenity in the mist of the challenges. Reminding myself that I am loved, I am worthy and most of all I am being seen and heard; despite finding proof of the opposite. Because you see, that's what my patterns are used to doing, finding the proof and getting stuck in my story.

I now choose to move through life...

Mapping out my coaching process...

with Grace and Ease...from a place of self-love, self-awareness and self-realization.  All of which I get closer to as I clear more layers.  Despite feeling like I'm going backwards at times and find myself in the beginning again...I embrace how far I've come and continue to remind myself that I am the co-creator of my own reality, with every thought whether positive or negative.  

So, remember when you find yourself at the beginning again, it's just another layer you are cleansing away.  Remember we are human too and our lives are a journey. Allow your cycles to help you dig deeper, believe in yourself and allow the art of becoming to wash over you, as you too reach for the surface.